Turtle Heart: The Perfect Date

2022

My lover introduced me to this bar with the back patio of my dreams. And on a perfect summertime Sunday
night it’s just me, Octavia, the plants, my weed, and a cocktail.

I felt loved on and delighted on a date with myself. Its the first one I successfully spent *not* consumed with texting loved ones. Often, I notice that I prefer the presence and validation of other people over my own company.

Accepting that can mean I notice too when I’m feeling content in my company. The times I validate myself with my soft breath, nothing more. Just being. Accepting this can mean I try other things, and notice and accept what comes from that too. Update: it was really lovely.

I blushed when I showed up and saw the effort I put into my outfit and makeup. Subtle, just enough that I would notice, and grin. I happened to choose my favorite fragrance to wear and I made a note to pick that up if I ever wonder about sweet little gifts to get me in the future.

I loved that I got slices of pizza from the place a couple doors down. Pretentious food is amazing, but it is also everything when a date can feel down to earth, you know? Don’t break the bank, at the end of the day I love cheese and bread. A lover taught me that this year.

My date picked a great spot, was right on time, and said and thought such swoon-worthy, charming things to me. I loved sinking deep into the little patio booth with the bourbon cocktail she ordered for me. It was exactly the taste I was going for.

She caught my eye in the mirror behind the bar while she was ordering and I thought she looked so damn fine. I felt lucky to be on her arm in that place.

The weather was perfect. It’s kind of always perfect in beautiful downtown Oakland, California, actually. I thought my date had good taste for wanting to live and love here, of all places.

If I wasn’t wet before my date pulled out a joint, let me tell you, it was all I could do to not follow her into the bathroom to show and not tell…

I smoked, sipped, read (fledgling. It’s so good), and shot this little video. And fell deeper in love with the only bitch who alway sticks around.

I am completely smitten. Thanks for asking. How are you?